Feeling Alone, Unwanted, Inadequate?

This past week I had a series of experiences where I felt completely unsupported, alone, unwanted and inadequate. I felt like I didn’t know what I was doing, that nobody cared about what I AM doing and nobody wanted to help me. What’s more is I felt resisted by several people. This put me in touch with my GRIEF and the parts of me that have suffered so much from being resisted.

When my Grief and Sadness show up, I feel such compassion and love. I literally hold myself by hugging myself. And I ask these parts of me to tell me all about it. When this happens, I feel a wave of energy go through me. My Sadness feels so supported and loved by me.

I’m actually best friends with my Sadness. It took a while for me to develop this relationship with myself, and I can honestly say it’s AMAZING. I no longer feel resistance to these parts of me that I once pushed away. As I am offering ACCEPTANCE to my sadness, it literally turns into my joy! It is my honor and privilege to harmonize these parts of myself back into the LOVE that we are.

If you’re feeling lonely, anxious, sad and tired, I totally get it. As I share my experience, it is my intention to support you on your journey. Though you feel unwanted, I WANT YOU. Though you feel alone, I AM HERE NOW WITH YOU as we are never separate. Thank you so much for your experience and what you bring to our world. I honor and respect your journey.

How To Be An Alchemist

al·che·my /ˈalkəmē/ the transformation of matter, concerned particularly with attempts to convert base metals into gold or to find a universal elixir.

We can actually transform ourselves through alchemy. What?! Consider that RESISTANCE is simply blocked energy that manifests in many forms. Resistance is the expression of the parts of our human selves that feel SEPARATE and are merely wanting to be REUNITED back into the Whole of the LOVE that we are. Resistance, blocked energy, is our opportunity to transform or alchemize matter into gold through the universal elixir, which is LOVE.

Underneath the resistance is the gold! Huh?! 
Here’s what that looks like:

Resistance: Gold:
Sadness Joy
Anger Passion
Anxiety Peace
Greed Generosity 
Fear Love
Meanness Kindness
Boredom Excitement

The way we alchemize our resistance into gold is by BEING PRESENT with LOVE and ACCEPTANCE to whatever RESISTANCE arises HERE NOW.

This is how we heal ourselves and the collective. This is how we remove ourselves from the vicious loop of suffering and create exciting new realities. This is how we create a new earth.

How We Are Creating A New Earth

Our ability to create exciting new realities for ourselves and the collective is directly proportional to our ability to OPEN to who WE ARE as Divine limitless beings. 

We are pure CONSCIOUSNESS looking upon ourselves as unique iterations of Source in skin, Formless in Form. As part of this human experience of being Form, we are living in a hologram, an intricately fabricated illusion where we as Formless Source are SEPARATE. And what we’re doing here on this earth is evolving human consciousness, individually and collectively. In order to experience the illusion of separation, we as Formless Source come into individual bodies and stories becoming Form and interact within the construct of TIME and SPACE in this 3D reality. 

Outside of this 3D reality, time and space don’t exist as we know it. Instead, EVERYTHING, EVERYONE, EVERY UNIVERSE, EVERY EXPERIENCE...the INFINITE is ALL HERE NOW. It’s actually WHO WE ARE as pure CONSCIOUSNESS, PRESENCE, LOVE, JOY. 

Because we are living in this hologram, the illusion of separation, experiencing life from our LIMITED human selves, we are essentially BLIND to our true nature as Divine limitless beings. And we become programmed, habituated to only operate from our unconscious illusion of separation. 

At some point in our experience, we may choose to OPEN to who we ALREADY ARE and begin to change the PERSPECTIVE from which we live. We may choose to REPROGRAM ourselves by being PRESENT with LOVE and ACCEPTANCE to whatever arises HERE NOW. This reprogramming is facilitated by PRACTICES that shift us out of our programmed unconscious way of living, so that we can OPEN to our true nature as Source, ONE with all that IS HERE NOW. 

We may choose to practice being PRESENT and HOLDING SPACE for these parts of our human selves that feel so SEPARATE. As we OPEN through being PRESENT with LOVE and ACCEPTANCE to what’s here now, we EMBODY the UNCONDITIONAL LOVE that we are. At this point, we begin to create new realities for ourselves and the collective. 

The more we WAKE UP from our unconscious human perspective and begin operating from our Divine limitless nature, the greater our ability to create from our LIMITLESS nature. We KNOW everything we need to know in THIS MOMENT. All abilities and resources are HERE NOW. This is how we create exciting new realities for ourselves and the Greater Good. 

This is how we EVOLVE HUMAN CONSCIOUSNESS and create WORLD PEACE. The reason why we haven’t created world peace before now is because we have not evolved as a collective to that point yet. But it is absolutely coming. How do I know this? Because we are PEACE itself. I AM creating this as SOURCE and ONE with all of you. Together, we are Creating A New Earth!

Growing A Happy Heart

Everybody wants to be happy. Sometimes that’s just not happening. And we struggle and suffer as we navigate this human experience of feeling very SEPARATE from everything and everyone. Because we feel separate from our happiness, we go about trying to find it. So we look for it in our relationships, our work, our possessions, our experiences- all the while not realizing what we are seeking is ALREADY HERE NOW. It’s WHO WE ARE...LOVE, JOY, PEACE, NONJUDGMENTAL PRESENCE, CONSCIOUSNESS, SOURCE, ALL THAT IS.

By LOOKING FOR happiness, it may tend to ELUDE us, or if we find it, it’s fleeting because we are looking everywhere but HERE NOW. The way to grow a happy heart is to OPEN to what’s already HERE NOW.

Imagine being a flower seed...you get put in the ground and watered. Arrrg! You scream, I’m being buried alive! I’m dying! You don’t realize the first stage of growing is to experience complete darkness, death to the seed, so you can sprout.

Then you finally do sprout, and you say, Whew! I can finally breath and stretch out. This is great! But then a thunderstorm arises out of nowhere, and you scream, WTF?! as you are tossed around feeling like you will drown. Soon the storm passes, and you go to sleep. When you wake up, you notice you have grown some leaves, which you feel very proud of.

So you look around and notice other leaves and flowers too. They are much bigger and prettier than you, and you begin to feel insignificant and jealous. As nighttime comes, it gets very dark, and you start to feel afraid and alone. You say to yourself, This here being a plant is not so fun at all. In fact, it sucks!

The next day after you wake up, you notice your head has formed into a bloom. You get very curious because you have no idea what’s happening. You’re not really sure if this is a good or bad thing. After all, there’s a big ball where there wasn’t one the day before. So you start thinking again, back and forth, good or bad? All this RESISTANCE to your round bloom head is giving you a headache! Finally you give up resisting the ideas of good or bad and say, IT IS WHAT IT IS, and relax and fall asleep.

The next day, you open you eyes and say, OMG! What in the world? I AM OPENING. Check me out! I got color! I’m FANCY! Oh yeah! I AM one HAPPY flower!...because you realize no matter how afraid or alone or insignificant or jealous or confused you felt... you ARE a FREAKING FLOWER that shouts to the sun with color!