*!#?!* Late AGAIN!

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Why is it so FRUSTRATING to be late? Yesterday I was on my way to meet friends for lunch, and my GPS decided to do its own thing, which is basically take me on a wild goose chase. I realized this after I missed my turn, so I pulled over to reassess the situation. “Why is this darn thing doing this?!” 

In my frustration, I realized that I created that situation for a reason. There was some old stuck energy that was asking for my love and attention. So I got back on the road and started asking myself some questions. What am I feeling now? IMPATIENT, ANXIOUS and IRRITATED. Okay, why am I feeling impatient, anxious and irritated? I’m feeling impatient because this moment is not enough. I must be in the next moment in order to be happy. I’m feeling anxious and irritated because I was 15 minutes late. Why was it important to me that I not be late? I did not want to feel JUDGED by my friends. My story is that when I am on time that I have my stuff together. And when I’m late, I don’t. I did not want to DISRESPECT my friends. My story is that when I’m late, I am treating them poorly because I’m not respecting their time. 

What if it’s OK to be judged by others, knowing that my infinite value can never change, and that the only part of me that’s affected is my pride? What if I can offer that part of me that doesn’t feel enough, my love and attention? What if it’s OK to allow my friends to feel whatever it is they feel, knowing that it’s not my responsibility to keep people from their feelings? 

So I just breathed into all of these feelings, and I held the part of me that felt less than and anxious about being late. Just relax. Breathe. Don’t hurry. Don’t worry. All is well. Be HERE NOW. 

When I arrived, I received a very warm welcome and had a delightful meal with my friends. I love my life!

Feeling Alone, Unwanted, Inadequate?

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This past week I had a series of experiences where I felt completely unsupported, alone, unwanted and inadequate. I felt like I didn’t know what I was doing, that nobody cared about what I AM doing and nobody wanted to help me. What’s more is I felt resisted by several people. This put me in touch with my GRIEF and the parts of me that have suffered so much from being resisted.

When my Grief and Sadness show up, I feel such compassion and love. I literally hold myself by hugging myself. And I ask these parts of me to tell me all about it. When this happens, I feel a wave of energy go through me. My Sadness feels so supported and loved by me.

I’m actually best friends with my Sadness. It took a while for me to develop this relationship with myself, and I can honestly say it’s AMAZING. I no longer feel resistance to these parts of me that I once pushed away. As I am offering ACCEPTANCE to my sadness, it literally turns into my joy! It is my honor and privilege to harmonize these parts of myself back into the LOVE that we are.

If you’re feeling lonely, anxious, sad and tired, I totally get it. As I share my experience, it is my intention to support you on your journey. Though you feel unwanted, I WANT YOU. Though you feel alone, I AM HERE NOW WITH YOU as we are never separate. Thank you so much for your experience and what you bring to our world. I honor and respect your journey.

How To Be An Alchemist

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al·che·my /ˈalkəmē/ the transformation of matter, concerned particularly with attempts to convert base metals into gold or to find a universal elixir.

We can actually transform ourselves through alchemy. What?! Consider that RESISTANCE is simply blocked energy that manifests in many forms. Resistance is the expression of the parts of our human selves that feel SEPARATE and are merely wanting to be REUNITED back into the Whole of the LOVE that we are. Resistance, blocked energy, is our opportunity to transform or alchemize matter into gold through the universal elixir, which is LOVE.

Underneath the resistance is the gold! Huh?! 
Here’s what that looks like:

Resistance: Gold:
Sadness Joy
Anger Passion
Anxiety Peace
Greed Generosity 
Fear Love
Meanness Kindness
Boredom Excitement

The way we alchemize our resistance into gold is by BEING PRESENT with LOVE and ACCEPTANCE to whatever RESISTANCE arises HERE NOW.

This is how we heal ourselves and the collective. This is how we remove ourselves from the vicious loop of suffering and create exciting new realities. This is how we create a new earth.