When my son Cory died, it felt as though my heart had been ripped out and discarded—much like the loss of a limb, except it was my heart that was taken away.
Later, I discovered that during pregnancy, fetal cells from the baby distribute throughout the mother’s body, embedding themselves into her organs.
This means that, in a profound way, your child becomes a part of you!
This phenomenon beautifully explains the deep bond between mother and child and why the impact of a child’s death is felt so intensely by a mother.
The cycle of life and death has intrigued me; I have witnessed it both in my external world and within myself.
As I journeyed through my grief, confronting Cory’s death head-on, I experienced my own egoic deaths nearly every day…
- Death to how I thought life should be…
- Death to my dreams and aspirations for Cory, my family, and myself…
- Death to my old way of being…
- Death to relationships that faded away…
- Death to the places I once held dear…
- Death to belief systems that once felt so vital to me…
Yet within this cycle, there is always life on the other side of death.
In facing my losses with courage, I also birthed new life…
- Life to a brand new world that looked nothing like my old one…
- Life to expanded dreams for myself and the shared experiences I now have with Cory on the other side…
- Life to perspectives I had never imagined—more open and vibrant…
- Life to new relationships with like-hearted souls and a fresh tribe…
- Life to my heart’s desire to live in Austin, TX, where I truly feel at home…
- Life to an exhilarating new reality I never thought possible.
Through this journey, I’ve learned that life and death are two sides of the same coin.
By embracing death, I was able to give birth to new life.
The death I experienced became fertile compost, nurturing rich beginnings that blossomed in ways I never could have envisioned.
As arduous and traumatic as it was to endure Cory’s passing, I am profoundly grateful for the gift of acceptance that enabled me to let go of the old and welcome in the new.
Death and life are among the most natural occurrences we face.
I am no longer afraid of death, for I now recognize it as an integral part of life’s progression.
Today, I feel immense gratitude for both my experiences with death and life, as well as the support I’ve received from Cory and others along my journey.
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If you’re struggling with the trauma of loss, know that you don’t have to navigate this path alone.
I would love to hear from you and learn more about your journey.
I invite you to join our Healing Hearts Community, where together we can share, grow, and heal.
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